Moving Towards The Light…

Ok, that sounds a little like Poltergeist, ha ha, but I’m actually talking about spring, and the spring semester. I love January because it’s a new semester, but it’s also a semester which gets lighter and lighter and ends in summer. I teach one night class this semester, and it’s lovely to know it will get lighter instead of darker as we move forward.

Crazy semester. Two classes in-person plus one online. A graduate class that I’ve never taught before. Traveling to see student teachers. Trying to write my damn book (the same book on teaching with technology I’ve been trying to write forever). Editing a journal. Advising almost eighty students. Raising a toddler. Growing a baby.

Frankly, I’m exhausted.

But. I get to drop everything and come April, spend four months with my babies.

I never stop worrying about this pregnancy. I’m a worrier. Past struggles and losses haven’t helped. Problems early in this pregnancy haven’t helped. So far everything is OK. She has a small problem with fluid on one kidney but the level is still normal and they are monitoring it. I had to see a perinatologist yesterdy, and he and the ultrasound tech were warm and funny.

“She has beautiful anatomy. She’s just gorgeous…”

“You have a perfect cervix. Has anyone told you what a perfect cervix you have?”

Then, this little gem:

“We’ll do another ultrasound at 34 or 35 weeks and decide if we need to deliver you early.”


“There’s a small possibility that the fluid on her kidney will go up, also, for some reason with AMAs, babies can develop problems around then, and it’s better to get them out.” (AMA means “advanced maternal age.” Yep, that’s me.)

So, really, I’m very happy that it was a good scan and everything looks great. I’m hoping this little pumpkin stays put until the end of April and is born perfect and healthy. I’ll be really happy when she is in my arms nursing.

Meanwhile, I forge ahead into a crazy busy semester. Trying to keep my head above water.

It was a little lighter outside this morning than it was yesterday, and that’s a good thing.